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Wednesday, August 10, 2011
sometimes, all the bad things just hit you at once. you know, that feeling where nothing's just right. but i guess, you need the bad times to appreciate the good ones.
i guess, in this puddle of a mess, i'm just trying to cling on to the one thing that gives me hope: you. but somehow i have doubts, i'm giving up so much, much more then i realise. but honestly i just get so caught up with you, and how i should be able to make things right with you, how i should give the most of happiness to you, all of my time should be spent endlessly with you.
i'm scared, i'm blind, i'm losing that bit of me. but i'm doing this just for you.
so what should i do?
i didn't mean to change my life, i didn't mean to put it on hold, i didn't mean to put anyone else behind. i don't know, i'm tired. and everythings deteriorated, my energy, my motivation, my life, my friendships.
i wish things were different, but its funny because looking back i don't know how i would have done things anymore differently. and i really don't know what has made me different to the girl i used to be.
i think i'm happy, i honestly do. but, there's always a but.