itsHER
the girl next door


nguggy.
16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

lalapewpewBOP!
herLOVESā™„
the bummies

melanie.
julie.
lamah.
angiee.

herJOURNEY
past & present

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affiliates
you're on your way

facebook.
tumblr.
formspring.

inspirations.
big world outside.

his.
hers.
this.
that.
Dear you,

because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
because it was always you. && somehow i hope it always will be.
PPJjunior

stomach pains.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
its hurts, it just feels like soemthing is eating me up, something is not right. and it hurts more that i can't stop it, i can't make it right. i replay little thoughts in my head, but i'm too scared. i feel so insecure right now. i don't know how to approach you. it feels like we never talk, like heart ti heart talk. but even then i'm too scared to have these talks cause theyre always so sad..

today, my greyish/white jeans, are loose on me. i don't know what to do. i still feel bleh abt myself somehow. everyone seems so judgemental. what if i let them down? what if i let my mom down?

my stomah hurts. i dont know why.

today i told someone a little secret. something i haven't brought up to anyone in a longg timee. noone uderstands, noone ever understands.

i miss ppj.

noone ever understands anything, and im too scared to tell anyone, cause whatif they judge me. why am i so scared of people judging me? ugh i hate everything i hate me. today something wierd happened. he jsut kept asking and commenting and i got so freaked out. i hate everything that happened to me. it fcken haunts me everyday of my life. and noone, noone will understand. so screw it.

i'm happy. this is what i'm telling you. everything is okay. thats all i'm saying. take it or leave it. your choice.


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