itsHER
the girl next door


nguggy.
16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

lalapewpewBOP!
herLOVESā™„
the bummies

melanie.
julie.
lamah.
angiee.

herJOURNEY
past & present

June 2009
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affiliates
you're on your way

facebook.
tumblr.
formspring.

inspirations.
big world outside.

his.
hers.
this.
that.
Dear you,

because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
because it was always you. && somehow i hope it always will be.
PPJjunior

& you will leave with what you came.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
i've lost them.
loss 'em all i tell ya.

tha' bitsy things that ye call feelings.
tho' ignorance youse call pride and courage.
shie man, dunno the meaning of what they call love and forgiveness too.

i mean, all that crap they tie a bow around,
that thing little girls call friendship.
promises lovers whisper.
redemtion priet's offer.
happiness daddy's ensure.
pain mothers aim to cease.
its all jsut bull shit i tell ya.
bullshit.

in the end, y'all got nothin'
nothin' i betcha.
just like moi.


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Saturday, August 7, 2010
i want to tell myself, tomorrow is a new day. I can start over. I can stand up. I can look forward. I will strive to do my best. I will soar above all. I won't make any mistakes. I will not take anything for granted. And i must be happy.

But i can't. I shan't. I won't.

I just can't bear to let go of the past. Everything just feels comfortable no matter how shit they are. Plus, if i don't look forward to the most, i won't get that disappointed right?

Practice makes perfect. Perfection is boring.


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to infinity and beyond.
Friday, August 6, 2010
i want to go out and about. Around and up high. Towards nothing in particular. I want to explore. Get away. Get real. I want to be inspired. To feeel. To need. To yearn. To be satisfied. To be full of passion. Feel delicate. Breathe everything in.

I want to be inspired. To inspire. To return. To dwelve in the present. Linger in the moment. Remember the past. Capture the future. To go out. Look in. To soar in the sky. Never return. Runaway. Never have left.

I want to live.


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im nothing but a fucken charity case.
a fucken beggar.


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