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the girl next door


nguggy.
16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

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Dear you,

because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
because it was always you. && somehow i hope it always will be.
PPJjunior

when out there just seems so scary.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
WEEEEEE, doubting that anyone reads this page anymore, but i must write my empty mind, for if i don't i will sure go insane. Been feeling so boring and lifeless lately, this are okay. No big drama. Well i don't want any tbh, but missing my net and my peoples.

Will you keep a secret for me?
Okays so here it goes, i've been thinking lately, and you know its weird when you suddenly see a whole new side into someone. Like that one moment you realised has changed everything sooooooo much! Like its sparked whole new thoughts and feelings. and then things just string one after another so youre always confronted with it.
But i'm so scared, these feelings although always been there for someone else now seems to unfamiliar and distant, not right. Especially for one so familiar yet unfamiliar at the same time, that if i do in which i can't do- things may as well be not done for they will go wrong.
So thinking about going out there right now is just not very right for me.
and i'm scared. like i always am.

so lets let it be, until next time i can put my hands onto another computer and grasp abit of courage.
i bid thee farewell, xx


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Saturday, June 19, 2010
lately, i've been feeling so uninspired.
how uninspired?
very.

i feel like i'm back to the beginning, where i have nothing and can't do anything at all. you know, like its just one of those feeelings i ALWAYS get. once upon a time, i could cook wellish, then i could take photographs, now i just don't know. One upon a time they made me feel okay and somewhat fulfilled. Now i don't know anymore.

its another lost period for meeeeeeeee. weeeeeeeeeeeee. well i shall make something sweet to eat again very well soon, hopefully i can take some pics with that and become inspired again.
Worse comes to worse, wait afew months, i'm sure life will bring me new things and people.

Ciao for now!
hope i get my net back soon!
toodles x


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