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16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

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because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
because it was always you. && somehow i hope it always will be.
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incomplete.
Friday, May 28, 2010
And you know,
that feeling when everythings okay,
yet nothing seems right?

Yes, thats the feeling i've been getting alot lately,and its not the best feeling.


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Saturday, May 22, 2010
i typed it all up.
I let it all out.
Yet i can't seem to post it up.

Whats wrong with me?
I need a hug.


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A bandaid won't fix what you did to me.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
And so much has happened in a sense, i can't even come to think what more there is to come.


So, i don't know what to do.. like about alot of things, how do i know that i am making the right decisions? I really want to make the right decisions, i don't want to be hurt, i don't want others to be hurt...
Sometimes, i wish we could just flip a coin for every single little thing! urgh how much easier would it beee?
But as always theres so much more to it.. Right now i just don't know if i should contact him.. I don't think i'm ready just yet.. But this isn't just that simple, i can't be selfish.. I have to think of consequences and act before its too late ...
I feel torn into two ...

Pray that it'll be okays again.
xx


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To you my dear
Monday, May 17, 2010
Well, do you remember why i started writing here again late last year? It was cause i didn't really know how to face you or get to you anymore.
Well lifes been a tad busy and hectic lately you know with life on as well as exams :/
ALSO MY NET IS FUCKING GONE,
but back to my point, deary, i'm sorry i haven't been there for you lately ...
I wish i could comes upers everyday of the arvo and just kinda lounge around.. like you know during the holidays and whatnot..
Just please give me till the end of this week... i read your blog.. seems liek alot of shiz has been happening, shall i call you tonight? or later-ish?
I miss you heapers, more than you would know,... I hope your okays, something seems to be happening, i worries...
I hopers youre okays <3
xx

take care babes
&
happy 2 months to my missus snuggly wufflers and her mister dweebers.


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And my mask has shimmers and purple feathers.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Right now, i feel like that lady in madeline; i just want to jump up and say "something is not right!"

do you ever get one of those feelings? Where things just don't seem okay, but you can't really say what it is thats not okay? Well, i hope everythings okay, with everyone...

Today, i had work.. It was bad in a sense i guess.. ? i really don't want to work anymore, but under these circumstances i know that i need this job. So imma keep trying to keep this job for as long as possible..

Well an "incident" occured today, in some sort, it made me think for a whole 20 minutes (the other 10 i spent on the phone with a friend in attempt to forget). But yes, i wonder why people smoke and shie. TBH i'm okay with it. Not with drugs but like you know drinking and smoking. I'm not going to be one of those girls who fuss and are like: people like that are disgraceful! its bad for you okay. You shouldn't be doing it in the first place. You had a choice.
I guess that's cause i know along the way i will be in those situations where i will be taking a fag and waking up with a hangover.
Well back to the story a friend of mine seemed really stress so i went after him, he was gonna yerh but i think i got so upset is because.. actually i don't know why i got upset... I guess i just cared? But it pissed me off that he though i was being judgement and shit? I'm not like that?
I don't like being misunderstood or judged. I hate people who come to conclusions about me and foreword shit about me.

If you don't know what i am doing or going to do SHUTUP. Noone fucken knows the whole story and so they have no fucken right to assume they do or whatnot. Now i'm pissed. GAH.

lalala, i miss so many people atm tooooo!
YES YOU ASSSWIPE!
i need a spongebobs nose joke or something like thaaaat, imy xx

so thats it i guesses. tata for nowwwwwwww ? x


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