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16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

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because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
because it was always you. && somehow i hope it always will be.
PPJjunior

Promised me forever-
Monday, April 5, 2010
But what happens when it becomes a never?

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Dear blog.
sorry for not posting up all my little drafts-
but honestly your not missing out on much,
theyre pretty meaningless.

Lately, alot has been happening for me in some sorts or another. Alot has been mentioned about my dad... What do people expect of me? I don't really know anymore. And i don't know how to cope when people do suddenly take about families and daddys. siggh.

If you ever ask me my most memorable event with my father, well you'd already know what it is, nothing too significant yet its stayed with me? Is it because that was the most affection i'd got of him?

When i was little, and it'd be long periods when i didn't see him, he'd give me a little hug and that was about it. Yesterday night i got a hug from a father figure, uncle phong, it was light and nothing much, but it reminded me of my own father. Uncle phong said to me to come up more regularly and that he'd teach me how to drive and everything.

I wonder why you aren't here. I wonder why they're doing your job. I wonder why I'm crying and longing for you when i know they would do a million times better as my father then you would ever be.

I wish you never left me hanging, i wish if you were gonna leave that you would just have told me.

Sometimes, i wish i never knew you.

I wish, i were never born.

Its all your fault.


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