itsHER
the girl next door


nguggy.
16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

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melanie.
julie.
lamah.
angiee.

herJOURNEY
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Dear you,

because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
because it was always you. && somehow i hope it always will be.
PPJjunior

If i had a choice.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Yes, if i had a choice things would be very different. I wouldn't be lying restlessly in bed for hours. My fortune, lucks and love would be totally opposite and whatnot.. But those i guesses i can only kinda wish for.. which is kinda greedy of me.. Imean is it wrong to want abit more in life sometimes? Today spent the day with my cousin julie, nothing too spectacular i guesses, but at some points i felt so low. A grade older than me shes living her life. Yes, I'm jealous of her flings, fun, laughter, quirkyness, talents (vocaals,guitar,keyboard). Okay, so i guess i wouldn't disobey my mom, sneak out at night, drink and shits, but yerh, you can't have it both ways aye...

Well, i still want a camera. IDC if its not a thousand grand, 12mp, a dslr.
I just want something that could accompany me, help me find myself and snapshot those moments slipping away from me, day by day, faster each minute and second which comes along.

I'm so scared
Of nothing. Like of having nothing and losing everything that I've had.

Well, its 12. I should fall asleep pretty soon since my lack last night..
I had a nightmare which woke me around 5am. didn't get back to sleep..
i need someone to talk to abt it.. sighsigh... i guess i'll go to you when the time is right and i'm ready to talk...

Anyways, had another comforting dreams after that.. HAHA. guess who was in it?


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