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Saturday, January 30, 2010
okay.. Maybe not just yet but soon okays :( I shall learn to drive... someday :D
Anyways just thought i'd pop in since i have work tomorrow then i haftohaftohafto do my math homework afters. Add a light reading of stockmarkshit too T___________________________________________________T"
yes, that just gets longer and longer everyday. I just somehow think it emphasizes my... pain :L
well, anyways yes i am serious though. I'm reading about stocks and market a)because I'm crazy b)Mother thought it'd be a good idea c)i'm doing economics d)idk- i'm serious i durnos why I'm reading it =.=
So today didn't do that much i guessms. I had vietschool so i left at 8-ish and started at 8.30 OMG YOU'LL NEVER GUESS WHAT. they extended the hours (not really) til 11.45 FML thats a waste of my life kiner-ish. well everyone there(half) are like really fob so htat puts me in a disadvantage kinder-ish.
breathhhh
Okay I don't think i'll be on for afew days. So heres whats i've got in mind (not like my plans are ever followed)...
Sunday
Work + officeworks + math + Reading +
umm I'm suppose to watch news for economics..
Monday
6am for school... + free period (p6) >viet hw? + type up a resume? + Westmeads hospital(?)
okay tis all for now.
ps, three unit math? I'm not sure...
MRsnuggles is all clean
Friday, January 29, 2010
Cause mom finally washed him :) Year eleven. Time to get serious, right ... ? I wonder why a big deal is made over it... I mean its just another school year and if you apply a good effort whatnot then you'll do good..
Kay, maybe I'm scared shitless, but i don't know what to do, sighsigh. The least i can do is make myself feel that it'll be fine no matter if things will turn for the worse or better.
Well school, i guess i was pretty much prepared. Theres ALOT of content. But things seem pretty much straightforwad. Gotta be honest though, I don't realy like my subjects.
SOR1
english ext
english adv
math 2u
economics
biology
chemistry
thats bout it i guesses. I've got about 7 free periods in a fortnight too... LOL thats so much and i think I'm lonered most of the time. stupid subjects. People told me to do ext math but I'm too scared. hahahaha. Ummm school... Well, there's a new girl. Kelly chao from moorebank high. She seems nice and everything to me... but i feel bad for her cause everyones saying shit and like, i don't think anyones accepting her into their groups.. kinda-ish... Just because she has nlonde hair and whatnot... honestly idk.
Well next topic, Sorry i haven't been blogging nor talking to you lately... I guess in some sorts alot of things have been happening. Lets see.. Well, printed more photos for my wall! Imma collect other shizz like posters and whatnot and make a pretty pretty wall P:
hahahahah. actually one might juat be of photos and i'll place posters and the other wall.its goonna cost ma fortune T_____________________T"
OH ! imma get the camera! Its not an slr but its pretty good for the price. I'm getting Fujifilm finepix S1500. ! :)
so it'll be less than a month. Once i settle into year 11 my camera should have arrived and cyeahhh!
& I came up with something too!
For my 365, I'm gonna put it on hold till my birthday then from my 17th, i'll count up to my 18th birthday! it'll be a hectic yet memorable yearrr ! :D
Meanwhile, I'm just going to practice heaps and have fun with it~!
hmmm, things at home are rocky, not bad totally I'm managing. A few things have been happening but i guess they'll slide. haha, thats all for tonight!
ps, tahankyou mummy for the coconut juice jellys! i love you (:
(she got me them so my tummy wont hurts anymore! + theyre so 'spensive :S kekes)
loveyous.x
If i had a choice.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Yes, if i had a choice things would be very different. I wouldn't be lying restlessly in bed for hours. My fortune, lucks and love would be totally opposite and whatnot.. But those i guesses i can only kinda wish for.. which is kinda greedy of me.. Imean is it wrong to want abit more in life sometimes? Today spent the day with my cousin julie, nothing too spectacular i guesses, but at some points i felt so low. A grade older than me shes living her life. Yes, I'm jealous of her flings, fun, laughter, quirkyness, talents (vocaals,guitar,keyboard). Okay, so i guess i wouldn't disobey my mom, sneak out at night, drink and shits, but yerh, you can't have it both ways aye... Well, i still want a camera. IDC if its not a thousand grand, 12mp, a dslr.
I just want something that could accompany me, help me find myself and snapshot those moments slipping away from me, day by day, faster each minute and second which comes along.
I'm so scared
Of nothing. Like of having nothing and losing everything that I've had.
Well, its 12. I should fall asleep pretty soon since my lack last night..
I had a nightmare which woke me around 5am. didn't get back to sleep..
i need someone to talk to abt it.. sighsigh... i guess i'll go to you when the time is right and i'm ready to talk...
Anyways, had another comforting dreams after that.. HAHA. guess who was in it?
the end.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
It's scary how everything is so slow but time.Once again, I'm simply waiting for another day to pass by. Yes i am tired of living my life this way, like a broken cassette.
well, its the end of my 365 and i barely completed 10 days worth of photography...
I give up hope..
I know it sounds pessimistic shit and all, but honestly why give myself false hope, then fal and shatter harder than before?
The facts are that I'm not getting a camera anytime soon, and i have to "prioritize"
Sometimes, life just can't go your way.
But i guess I'm just upset cause mom never made anything out of her life and i feel I'm responsible for it.. she could have lived so much more without this burden..
Then theres all the broken promises that keep on being made to me..
If your not going to do something, just admit it why get me hyped up and whatnot?
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weeee. finished whywhylove.. yes.. interesting..
im sorry bubby...
Friday, January 22, 2010
this is just the way i am. and i'm sorry. my lack of confidence. lack of initiative. my lack of comforting words to approach you guys with. I'm a coward i must admit. How should i phrase this?If i continue to poke on your wounds, will it gash and become worse?
Yessum, I guess thats to explain me right not.. I'm scared that asking upon your conflicts would cause you guys to be come more upset.. At some point i had my fair share of experience, and I guess when you're ready you would come to me?
There's no point forcing a bird to sing when its clearly unhappy locked up in a cage.
The event the other night... To be honest i didn't know what to do. That day wasn't the brightest for me, and i was so confused when you came down... I just waited. I cat as time passed... When duy came on with a push and an urge i got my nerves up and went up...
It brought up alot of memories for me i guesses... I don't know but i started to read my blogs back in "october".. We've come a far way...
Kay honestly, i don't know why i posted i guess i just wanted to say sorry..
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
It only hurts if you say so.& You'll be happy otherwise said.
logic doesn't always lead to happiness
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
But dreams can also turn into nightmares.I don't know whats wrong with me, but suddenly i feel like crumbling.
Perhaps I did over react about the possibilities.
hour after hour goes by, i maybe surround by people but honestly i feel hollow. i'm sick of myself.
But today, i did something i've never done before.
I didn't talk or gosh about him or anything. I just let the tears fall. And i don't know anymore. I'm completely clueless..
i need to eat.
not because I'm hungry nor cause mum's making me i just need to.
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WEEEEEEEE. a happy weeee!
julie my cousin came over today (:
+ like all things it started slow, abit rocky but we made the night.
more on that tomorrow. happier posts on other shiizz happening.
muchlove, geri
Need to fall back + let it go...
Monday, January 18, 2010
Some times, there's no right and wrong. It just comes down what you think may be best. But even then it might turn out to be the worst decision you ever made.But you'll just hafto continue to live with it
The longer i dream,
the harder it'll be for me to come back to reality.
the harder it'll be for me to come back to reality.
I think its time for me to let go. I'm sure everyone else has heard enough too :)
You can't hold onto something that's not yours.
What not meant to be yours will never be.
What not meant to be yours will never be.
Why am i searching so hard? Especially when there's nothing to look for?
Took me long enough to realise; Its a figment of my imagination.
Why do we try to hold onto something that's trying to let us go?
So many questions. So little answers.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
What the hell is so special about noodles?Idon't know.. Honestly. I could've told you the answer once upon a time but now even i am unclear to myself. All you hear is me rambling about him. And well, even those words have lost meaning to me. Although i know i feel something I'm quite unsure what it is. Is it love? Is it lust?
Is it possible to love, like or crush on someone, something that you've never known?
HAHAHA funny convo.
but anyways. i was reading over some old messages and chat logs whatnot. And gawsh. i miss my old friends :(
There was lamah, kevin, rin, cee, jenny. sighhhhh. Wonder what happened? I guess it was just me and shiz thats happening. i vowel that this year is a new year and that all friends made i will keep in best contact-ish watever. but yerhhhh !
well i miss thems.
weee. getting all hyped up with mel atm x)
No idea what we're talking about though hahaha.
weeeeeeeeeee. who am i?
i don't even know anymore.
Talent is something that occurs naturally.
You cannot possess nor conquer it.
You cannot possess nor conquer it.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
sorry for being in such a bad WTF mood today :(
I Would Be Lying
Friday, January 15, 2010
Novelno clashes, no strain
it never felt like love anyway
i'm so glad girl maybe we're better of
that's a load off of my shoulder
was it meant to be
i guess we'll never know love
i admit we never did evolve
or maybe i'm just fooling myself
cos i can't see me with nobody else
cos i keep walking round with a smile on my face
and all along (?)
and if i said you weren't my shining
then i would be lying
and i keep walking round with a smile on my face
and all along (?)
and if i said you weren't my shining
i would be lying
moon lights and lonely days
it's just a reminder that you brought me pain
but we're way past it, i'm over it now
took me a while to build the courage to say
i don't wanna see you ever again
i think it's best we've gone our separate ways
but what if i'm just kidding myself
cos i can't picture me with nobody else
cos i keep walking round with a smile on my face
and all along (?)
and if i said you weren't my shining
then i would be lying
and i keep walking round with a smile on my face
and all along (?)
and if i said you weren't my shining
i would be lying
i know we're over and out
she just keeps telling me now
why can't we just be friends
and i gotta act like it's ok
but i can't pretend (no)
cos i keep walking round with a smile on my face
and all along (?)
and if i said you weren't my shining
then i would be lying
and i keep walking round with a smile on my face
and all along (?)
and if i said you weren't my shining
i would be lying
i would be lying, i would be lying (oh oh oh)
used to be addicted to this song, guess i still kinda am <3
lalala, so the day mightn't have started right, but my day is slowly getting better with monkee.
Well her poem for me made my day.
Read it here.
BBAHAHAHAHHA. WELL, monkee came over and at first we were both feeling so BLEH.
but then started googling shit. yess SHIT. bahahha narh we googled "weeding dresses" which soon turned into "worst wedding dresses" and "funny wedding dresses" ohhhhh the many laughs.
don't kill me if i upload them caus ei was so bored without you.
ily.
hapiness in a bowl of noodles.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Two weeks into 2010 and it must be a record. I'm happy. Yes i am despite my downs & stupid thoughts overall nothing drastic is happening..shit i did not just say that cause something just popped into my head.
URGHH. D:
Don't you hate it when that happens? I feel like i just got smacked across the face. WHAM.
Well, the guy may be coming back next week its a long story i don't wanna tell...
-sighsigh-
Onto other news. Haven't been doing much. Just trying to photoshop i guesses. It took up my whole day pretty much. hmm oh yerhh .
I'm happy, cause something i didn't think would happen happened. And i tots didn't expect it... so i was like awwww.
my happiness in a bowl of noodles
Its like this guys, sure nothing drastic ever happens. There may be nothing special about the bowl of noodles (i sound like a retard to outsiders don't i T__T") but that bowl of noodles... okay I'm shutting up now.
I'm no poet. And I'll say it straight out.
Em thich an to mi.
PPPFFT. hahaha. well, its getting late, I'm feeling bored. Here's my poem to you.
little bo peep
had a white sheep
it was preetty and funny
so she called it monkee
its stomach felt hollow
so she fed it some marshmallows
its cried for a friend who was friendly
so little bo called over a donkee
seeing them laughing happily,
little bo felt ever so lonely
she looked at the moon
wishing for a guy who'd make her swoon
to be continued...
gummybearshiftcommathreemarshmallowmonkey
Sometimes don't you wish life could be easier... Simpler. That being happy didn't mean trying that hard or lying.
Sometimes, Its not that the people around you aren't listening, they've heard you without quite understanding nor processing the meaning of your overwhelments. To you what maybe the answer to their questions to them is merely a ramble. I guess that why we sometimes choose not to tell anyone our deepest desires, thoughts and horrors.
Sometimes, i like to think that all things have a happy ending. Like this post.. AHAH.
well, talking about dreams, smelly didn't turn up to mine last night. But guess what i saw? The full moon from my window.. very umm meaningful. This morning i was contemplating whether or not it was a dream but it was since theres no moon during this time of monthhh.
I dreamt other crap but weren't worth remembering (:
sweetdreamslove.
The Worst Part Is Over
Claude KellySee I've been trough a place, called hell on earth
Where you body is the same but you heart really burns
that kind of pain is more like a curse
Yeahee yeahaa
I was down on the ground but the tears wouldn't come
Could not make a sound
My voice wouldn't budge
Nobody around
They assumed i was done
Eeyee yeaahaa
When i got ready to close my eyes
Kiss my chance and love goodbye
Here comes hope like a ray of light
It was you baby saying
ooh
You ain't gotta climb this mountain alone
just take my hand
And I wait for you, when you can't be strong
Worst part is over
Worst part is over
I'm here to hold you
Worst part is over
See the measure of love
Ain't when you're up
Its about how sticks around
When you can't see the sun
And you're proven to be
Someone I can trust
Eeyee yeahaa
When i got ready to close my eyes
Kiss my chance and love goodbye
Here comes hope like a ray of light
It was you baby saying
ooh
You aint gotta climb this mountain alone
just take my hand
And i wait for you, when you cant be strong
Worst part is over
Worst part is over
I'm here to hold you
Worst part is over
You're that extra bit of faith when I'm giving up
That little boost of strength when I'm against the wall
In every way you show
The definition of love
Cos you let me know
Ooh
You ain't gotta climb this mountain alone
just take my hand
And i wait for you, when you cant be strong
Worst part is over
Worst part is over
I'm here to hold you
Worst part is over
See I've been trough a place it called hell on earth
but that part is over.
Who i was, am + will become.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
I just realised.I've become too serious for my own good.
Now, this is who i am but it will not be who i will become.
When you think about it, in fifteen years time i will be 30? Its so long away yet so close, after all I've already gone through 15 in a blink of an eye.
At night, i get so scared as i hear every second tick away. Its another second of my life wasted, that I've done nothing with.
Even though i am surrounded by people, why do i feel so lonely, ever so lonely?
There's like a never ending nothingness-
an empty space within me tummy, waiting to swell up with affection.
There's like a never ending nothingness-
an empty space within me tummy, waiting to swell up with affection.
Sometimes, it freaks me out how long i actually zone out about nothing in particular, one moment it feels like I've got all the time in the world- but the next, I'm choking in confusion about where I'm leading to nowhere in particular
So whats your favourite food?
Is it you happy food?
Mines icecream, but lately it doesn't seem to make me happy :S
No food fills my tummy i think somethings wrong with my eating habits.. Well guesses i hafto wait till school resumes to redo my eating habits.
Oh guess what- I'm stil trying to figure out "Whats me". Epic failure. Gonna try to ps some more shots tomorrow.
i ch-ch-choo-oose you.
The one who'll makes my tummy rumble with laughter,
and my heart tickle with happiness.
Well right now i choose my family + friends.
muchlove to you all,
x
So whats your favourite food?
Is it you happy food?
Mines icecream, but lately it doesn't seem to make me happy :S
No food fills my tummy i think somethings wrong with my eating habits.. Well guesses i hafto wait till school resumes to redo my eating habits.
Oh guess what- I'm stil trying to figure out "Whats me". Epic failure. Gonna try to ps some more shots tomorrow.
i ch-ch-choo-oose you.
The one who'll makes my tummy rumble with laughter,
and my heart tickle with happiness.
Well right now i choose my family + friends.
muchlove to you all,
x
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. went swimming today with mel+herfriends+adonkee+narellieeee.
had heaps of funnn. idk what e;llse to write about it? haha
umm well left the house at 11.45ish and when i got there the line was like this
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PLUS
no kidding, it was like 12372849034013281 times much longer.
but suprisingly we did in quicker than we thought. Spent the beginning with liz until everyone kinda came got together blahblah idk.
we also all squished into the spa x)
bahahha, bad experience with a lil corrupted girl mann. hope my sister doesnt end up like that.
ohhh, but so glad she had fun.
kay im just bloging for the sake of not blogging in a long while. Heres to what else has been happening lately:
well, the guy and mum seem awfully quiet. I'm asuming that things weren't workingout long distance.
My mum and aunty have been spending alot of time together doing idk what.
meee, well i need more sleep. yues it seems though i have no life (in which i don't) and somehow i manage to still need more sleep.
ummmm, i need money.
idk idk idk. i just do?
I'm trying to save up for a new sofa and like shelves and stuff for the house, hopefully in a few months the house will look somewhat tidier?
ummm, well these thoughts have been kinda bothering me...
I even had a nightmare last night... i dogged my friiends today what seemed to be my planned beach outing which turned into epic fail. Four girls ended going and i feel bad.. then julie was like they might talk shiz and i'm scared :/
well we're girls, sighsigh.
Also, summerbreak is on this sunday. idk i don't wanna go but then i have work as well. i told her i needed the money and she offered to pay for me? Its nice of her but honestly, lately we've been so out of touch and shit. As my friend can't she be abit more empathetic for me?
Like she moans and crap abt the same shit she goes thorugh and then im carrying my shit and her shit and i have nowhere to dump it... idk i'm being a bitch about it all...I'm just so tired all the thinking this is getting me into is making me all weary ... okays screw these thoughts.
imma have some icecream in moms room then head to bed early (:
Sunday, January 10, 2010
weeeeeeeeeeeeee. been on the phone with julie since 8ish :D
mum told me to get off half an hour ago but mehhh
LOLOL.
no idea what we talk about, but must be pretty interesting & entertaining :D
loveyoumarshall.x
on the other hand, had work today. It started off rally bad... nghh. I'm trying. i decided to postpone beach and become an isolate. Well, summer break is off too. i really need the money. 8 more weeks-ish till i can get the sofa :D
my goal, its alot but idm since its something for the house~
shalalala.
well hope everythings been well for everyone. it's been pretty good for me besides the lack of human contact-ish.. BAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
iwannaboyfeeeeee. idk? do i?
bleh. he'll appear someday
well, just got off with julie after 2+ hours. and guess what i've discovered!
i think imma buy books online. well atm. my legg is aching so much :(
should i get mum to thingy it for me..
poo. :(
owieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. i be off soon. nights
x
let me hear your voice (8)
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
So i know I'm blogging again. and who knows whats gonna come into my mind this timeeee. Well, theres about 219083231 (well more like the last two digits) on msn atm. Wonder what they're doing. But back to my point, noone i wanna talk to is on..Oh! like I made this for smelly yesterday!
Well it took me a while, but i had fun during the process. Learnt heaps (:
but still not me yeah..
well, tumblr-ing atm, & found this on blogsecret it touched me heaps.. but i guess this is the main point of my this entry:
3280: Just be strong, and hang in there.
nothing is worth dying for. keep that in mind. nothing is ever worth giving up your very own life. whether it is family, friends, love. it’s not worth the chance if it costs your life. life goes on, and eventually in time, your day will come. there was a reason for you to be born.
i’m a girl, that has gone through some stuff too. i was molested a child growing older and many more. and that doesn’t stop me from anything out in this big big world because i know people out there have gone through way much more, and a lot worst. believe me, people out there had/have it worst. i’ve learned to value a lot of things, thanks to my history teacher because i learned about Hiroshima.
for things to get better, you must realize you have to go through the tough situations first.
take a second a think about it again.
she's right there is alot to live for, especially for everything & everyone to come..
the julie.
BAHAHA. my list dedicated to julie. So what did you want to know...?
Hopefully, i can answer this for you hunny.
As most you guys know, (well the two of you anyways), Anthony was one of the most influential person and event of my 2009. Why? Well, sometimes i don't even know. I've always blamed it on the fact that it's cause he knows. Being a uni guy and all late nights, clubbing drinking and what not.. somehow he was different you know. And man idk, he always thought i was corrupted he judged me. But somehow along the way we got to know each other better and things changed i was able to open up to him. Late night calls and texts. When no one else was there for me, when he was the only comfort i received. Along the way i fell for him really badly. The little things he noticed about me and the silly things he said that made me laugh. weeeeeeeeeeeee. shalalalala.
so the list.
well, we all have our ideal guys right? We have different fantasy and dreams. Some expect more than others.
My ideal thing would be a park and swings.. Yes my thing for swings.. i blogged about it onceee. If you've ever been on a swing at night, its the free flowing rush, plus the whole adrenaling thing gets to mee. ahahha
mmm. why not a cute smile and the whole package (although trust me it doesn't matter, anthony's living proof.. LOL)
ohhh. And who could forget my endless supply of icecream andand pockky! My happy food! thats kinda self explanatory although he'd hafto know deets of 09 to understand. x)
It'd be cute if he could sing me a symphony, but then and again our song will be you are my sunshinee (8)
Gimme a piggy back ride. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. It'd be fun (for me at least :)
I don't know, some how little things matter cause it adds up to the big thing.
btw i lovelovelove daisies. :L
Don't shower me with handbags but gifts of books and plushies!
shalalala, give me those little messages
care and ask after me even though things seem okay.
be sentimental & meaningful
unlike julie, i don't mind corny things :D
but i think the thing i'm looking for most is happiness.. make me smile?
wow. shit. thats a long list...HAHAHA. but i think it's not that hard.. issit?
much love to whoever meets this list one dayyy.
Please Don't Go (8)
sooooo. a lot has been happening. but lets face it, sometimes you just hafto let shit go and get over its.
well, sorry monkeyface that i couldn't come :(
but it must've been fate or something since i found out DBSK IS IN SYDNEYYYYY!
ps; whats this abt name calling, you are SO more lesbian than me. :P
Today, went dbsk hunting with Mary. We had no idea where to go.. LOL so we went off at St. James station and walked to Hilton Hotel Then walked like 2978357 rounds of pitt street & round over to george street. Saw Yuri and rinrin :D
But being me, i got exttremely bored so we decided to walk it back to central. Went to chinatown & i really wanna try out the pastry puff woman place, apparently its really good, but ANOTHER time i shall (:
After went o market city and that was LOOOOOOOL ! So, we saw a yoochun look alike. and from far i swaer it does the hair especially. So I kpet on staring at him and the guy next tioo him saw, and they both pointed at meee T__T"
so after 20mins Mary & i decided to head over to them... IT WASN'T HIM :'(
Oh well, a girl can dream. Hope they're at Bondi on Tuesday.. LOLOL
Well, on train back home, CUTE GUY ALERT. not realy. he was so asiannnn. :L
But dayum he had nice style. His dress shirt and denim pants. Leather bag and his watchh. gawshhhhh. OHOH. he had cross earrings like jae which made me crack myselfff. so me and mary settled on giving him a 7 (:
hmmmm. well thats pretty much it, & julie i promise i'll get to the list tonight or tomorrow (:
BTW. haven't seen your ass since new years. get it down here. no procrastinations remember ):
muchlovex
Monday, January 4, 2010
The hour stretches so long.I want to scream out.
But who will hear me?
Who will listen.
I'm just begging for a response from my plead.
Someone, anyone.
Please make me smile.
Don't try to run..
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Well, i'm not.. physically anyways. What is it that i want out of this life? Can someone anyone tell me where i am headed for? So its 2010, but it feels no different. Its just any other holiday where I'm lounging around doing nothing in particular. Well, I'm halfway through the holidays and soon enough I'll be complaining about school work and what not. The usual.
Don't know why, but i just get so bored of everything so easily. Like hobbies and "stuffs to do". I may not be spectacular at anything in particular but I'm exceptable. I do okay.
Cooking. Knitting. Photographing. Gaming. Photoshopping. Quoting. Reading.
I'm still not satisfied nothing completes me after a few days or weeks.
Someone find me something that'll make me happy.
Make me a special me.
Do you ever feel like you have so much to say about something or like to someone. You feel like you could explode. Bu t then when the opportunity comes, you just can't do it. Maybe you think its for the better maybe it doesn't feel "Right".
Things slowly start to build up inside of you after a while, and then you feel like crumbling over. Do you ever have the urge to just cry. just to let all that unknown pain out. And then you;d wish someone would see and give you a hug or something, some sign, any sign of comfort but then you realise that you were alone..
Do you ever feel so blissful, you just wanna smile to yourself about something so dear and precious to yourself. You feel like you just want to hold onto it forever and ever. You just want time to freeze right there and right then. You wish that everyone else could feel that little piece of happiness... And although there's so much out there, somewhere else waiting for you, you don't really care because here is where you're happy.
Right now, i feel like icecream.
Really badly.
Cookies and cream icecream.
Some pancakes tomorrow would be nice to.
OMG. & rocky road.
Pocky would make me smile.
MMMM. Had work today? I don't like my job.. I think I'm going to try find a new one... I wanna learn to drive a motorbike. VROOOOOOOOOM. but gonna try get my L's first. Mum's unhappy with me for the usual reasons. I'm going to clean a window tomorrow. YEEEEEEE. I hate how my computer has my sitting on my fat ass all day. I'm going to ... yeah. work on limiting myself ... well we'll see about the last one :)
So many plans going on lately.. Not really but yerh.
-Movie
-Beach
-Summerbreak
-Elena outing
-That other outing planned
-Iceskating
I need cash very badly. wonder when sister's dad is coming back :(
Kay. That's all.
Better go to bed before mummy chucks a spazz.
lovemuchfromme.
xx
Let's press rewind...
Saturday, January 2, 2010
I'm sorry I didn't know.. wished you would've said something to me...
Happy 2010!
Friday, January 1, 2010
The new year has begun, so once again lets make the most of it for as long as we can! That i can definitely do, no promises but it won't hurt to try! (: Spent NYE with Mel! And sure, it was slow at the beginning and we complained.. a lot, but i think at the end of the night i was happy that i chose to do nothing else but snuggle with a dictionary and make awfully lame jokes with her.. HAHA. Narh it was great, thanks hunny for everything!
Well, i don't know how you think but i reckon a lot of things happened? Man, at least we both completed the challenge! Me in 20minutes,m and you 20minutes to NY. but still, I'm proud (:
Laughs of the night was deinitely because of
THE LIST
Texts were sent & received. Most memorable would probably be from Anty, at first i didn't expect it, and now i don't know if i should expect something to occur from it. Truly if you are sick of me talking about him, you would tell me won't you..? Man I'm so foolish..
Well, idk when you watch it, but if you do in how i met your mother, there's this episode where ted kinda says he meets that one. &no matter what happens you really don't get over them. Sure one day you get over them but you don't forget or something.. would you know what I'm talking about? LOL, sorry i'm rambling. I'm just touched that he cares and shit.
WEEELL. all this shit is over for good! A new year might not be a total new beginning, but it definitely brings about many new chances as the school year starts over, we meet new people and we travel new places! Everyone, grasp these chances, make the most of it & shoot for the stars ! (it sounds lame, but i like stars)
My blessings for all. If you have a chance take a glimpse of the full moon for me tonight <3
Happy new year!