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the girl next door


nguggy.
16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

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Dear you,

because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
because it was always you. && somehow i hope it always will be.
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open up?
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
right now. there's a weird feeling at the pit of my stomach.
Its weird idk. or maybe i do know but i'm trying to lie to myself..

its a mix of guilt and yeah...

so we just got a phone call.
the guy and his daughter are moving to melbourne. yet why do i feel so sad.

my mum was laughing about it. but i wonder if she's sad.
and i feel bad. cause i know in one way or another i screwed it up for her again.
I'm the reason that she won't pack up and leave..
i feel so shit right now.
i don't know who to go to.
so much has happened and far out.
i just can't help it, but no matter how much people offer. i just can't seem to open up.

why do i feel so shit?

once i asked her if she wanted to go to melbourne, she asked me if i wanted her to go.
honestly, i don't who would want their mother to leave them, but if letting her go would make her happy.
i'd lie to both of us saying i hate her just to grant her that bit more of happiness.


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