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16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

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because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
because it was always you. && somehow i hope it always will be.
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i should be letting go (8)
Saturday, November 7, 2009
So; school cert is in less than 32hours i think.
& i'm not worried.
Instead, i'm thinking about him.
what do i do?
i know he's just an obsession....
WHy is it so hard to find someone else who can offer me the same comfort?
Why is it so hard for me to open up to others who offer me comfort?
He changed his dp today. I just stared at it. Wondering how much i actually know him. it hurts for me to think, but maybe he really is and will always be a stranger anyways...

i should be studying; but i'm not...
i haven't even started. I wanna try to get at lleast band fives for all of my subjects, but as this rate i don't think so...

& i wonder what makes people think i'm so stupid..
am i stupid?
i'm starting to doubt myself...
you know, all my life (or for the most) i've tried to impress my mum with my marks, and i do exceptionally well, but no matter she doesn't see that.
now i'm, just over trying too hard.
i wanna live the way i want to.
do the things that would make me happy.
but what is that exactly?
I have no idea...
no idea at all.
no idea about anything anymore...


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