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Friday, October 9, 2009
Do you remember when you never had to worry about tomorrow?When all you had to worry about was when in the next ten minutes or so you'd get your hot chocolate.
Do you remember when we made those people make the promises without a worry about them being broken?
When forever slipped out of our mouths so gracefully because seemed so possible.
Do you remember running around the playground without worrying what a fool you looked like?
When you could twirl until you eyes were blinded with dizziness and you'd still not worry about hitting your head.
The list is never ending.. and i guess... i guess i just realized how much i've actually grown up and lost what i'd build up over half of the lifetime that i remember... I'd lost that childhood. that innocence where everything no matter how big or small seemed okay. Like actually believing that recycling could save the world, or if you actually wished something long and hard enough... it'd actually come true..
I'd wish i never lost that; or you. because when i was with you, other things just didn't matter anymore.
Like, we'd use to fooled around without a worry in our minds until we'd left one another. We'd use to make all those stupid jokes and laugh until we crouched over and hit our heads somewhere, most often then not on eachother's.
At the moment i'm at brandons. Mum decided to leave me here for a few days; why? becuase i'm supposedly out of control. But it doesn't matter. i guess at least i'll be kept off the computer for abit longer, and i can try to get some study.
Last night i didn't sleep till veryvery late. i'm guess 2? and i wasn't on the computer so go figure. from quarter to 12 i was in bed. and as if i was watching a film; my whole life spread out before me. i wonder if anyone would be interested in my story?
Oh; i had wanted to come on here to sday something to you. but i don't know if you'll read this. I told you i wanted to spend some time together..But im such a coward; i don't know how to ask. i was about to goup to your place but i was scared that you weren't home because your balcony door is never open anymore.
well; i hope i can see you soon. what i said that day, its true. i do miss you. and dw; PPJjunior is well (: