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16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

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Dear you,

because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
because it was always you. && somehow i hope it always will be.
PPJjunior

Never be replaced ♪
Thursday, October 29, 2009
this past week has honestly been a harsh handful;
mum and i didnt talk on monday.
On tuesday afternoon she didnt come to pick me up from the bus stop so i had to walk home. I thought of running away but honestly i was in the middle of no where.... maybe abit exaggerated on that.. hmm. but yerh i walked home & got abit lost... but i reached home and went to bed straight away.
i slept till 8ish. && then with noone to turn to; i turned to the person i have been for the last few months... anthony.
at first i forgot why i lied to him on monday evening telling him that everything was okay...
so i turned to him. i txted him he replied, and he didnt cheer me up. but what made me feel better was that someone cared. or so i thought. maybe he does, idk anymore. but what i do know is that things have changed, thus i didnt tell him on monday night. i don't want to be caught up on him...
I can trust him, but i can't expect much in return. He will be there for me, but he will never be here. he won't ever be ready here for me. He'll only appear when i ask or need him. Abit like superman. i guess thats the fail about superman. The thing with girls and love is that you need someone to be with you, protecting you everstep of the way, not just helping you out when you need it.
After a week or so of not talking, i know that something changed with anthony. He won't tell me but in a way he doesn't have to.
I don't even know if i'm sad about the situation or not...
All i know is next time, i don't think i'll have the guts to let someone as close as he got. To let out my all to someone.
On the other hand things with mum and i are better now, slowly. It hurt but i think the wounds are healing.

never be replaced; the people in my life may come and go but none of them can never be replaced.


i think imma use lyric titles from now :3
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