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16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

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because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
because it was always you. && somehow i hope it always will be.
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i don't like how i feel.
Monday, October 26, 2009
its a shitass day. i just wokeup and i plan on going back to bed.

its a shitass day when all my relationships seem screwed..
maybe only two. but they're lek importanttt ):

so i have the tendency to come here whenever i'mupset. and i think i realise why... mary use to give me the shits about complaining about my troubles. but truth is. she'll never know the crap i went through...

i'm not tired but i just feel really out.
i hopes it sunny tomorrow and i feel better.

today was supposedly suppose to be a good day, until my mum didn't trust me when i told her that i needed to go to elena's so that her dad can take us to school at 1 for our exam. then he'll pick us up and take us home...

she didn't belive me and we had an argument. more like her just throwing words at me -.-
i admit that at times i can reply back but her words are like slapping me, and obviously i have to defend myself right?
she told me to respect her. that i should be looking up to her. honestly she should do something and show something of herself.
honestly i'm just so disappointed in her sometimes..

she says i don't have her trust too. she thinks i'm full of b.s
honestly noone is perfect and in a way, i'm trying...
i was never the one to rebel or lie to go out.
fck. i never go out.
and when i do i never hide if theres guys or some shiet.
i don't fucken get what she wants me to do to be that daughter she wants. does she want me to kiss the grround shes on?

if today i wanted to go out. fck i've had the opp to do that everymorning for the last months casue we never changed her numbber in the school office.
fuck heck if i wanted to run away. i wouldve done so.
i just don't get my mum as much as i try.

i care. an dshe doesnt fucken see it.

if she fucken listened to me then my fucken sisters dad wouldnt do shit and we wouldnt be so fucken screwed.

she can go fucking all she likes duma. hate this shit thats happening.

and stupid of me to think that shit will be fine.


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