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he infatuates her.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
they asked me if i loved him.at that moment i couldn't answer.
they asked me if any other guy had said those words to me; would i have fallen for them?
again i could not answer.
two years my senior, the only reason as to why he sounded old was because of his "uni stat"
i remember our first conversation ever. he was not like any other guy id spoken to before. i know when i say that everyone would probably be thinking. he swept you off your feet. he filled you with those scrumptious flirts. he made you swwon. he tickled your tummy and made you heart flutter.
no. the truth is. no he didnt. our first conversation was ever so deep and meaningful. he merely did anything but offer his support. i did not accept it. but it was the beginning. because he unlike any other, he could tell. he is irhgt ahah. he is a genius because he was able to figure out what was wrong. but i was not ready. so i denied it. i denied it all. but unlike any other, he did not let it go. but he alos did not push me. he was just three, ready to catch me when i fall.
around the time of our first encounter (jit was a group outing), i was very distant from everyone, not just him... i guess it wasnt the best timing for me.. and i m just the type to isolate myself in time slike those.. but he tried to reach out me.. ahah but fearing i would not let anyone near me...
funny; because eventually i fell, and you caught me.
its a burst of mixed emotions.
when im with you i do and say the most foolish things, only to regret when we're apart.
after yu caught me, you let me down.
that was all. that was it. there was nothing mre to it.
we were nothing but friends. you coming to my rescue when i called. and leaving me behind when you'd done your deed.
don't you realise that i've fallen for you hard?
everytime there's something up, i'm worried. my heart wrenches, and i wonder.
i wonder whats wrong. i wonder why you are the way you are.
and where and how you've aquired all that knowledge.
those quotes.
the words of comfort only i can say you';ve learned from past experiences.
your friends commented you as playboy on facebook.
so once again i wondered that if those words were fake?
its meanings all apart of my figment of imagination.
iloveyou.
the words seem so simple. yet the're not.
honestly, i don't know if i love you.
i dont know what love is.
two weeks or so ago, you promise me you'd get back to me.
you pinky promised.
you never did; until today. but youer acting strange...
i feel like somethings wrong.
in the beginning you asked me why i kept distanting me fro myou.
but its you who are...
and it hurts me.
in the two weeks idid not talk to you, i told myself to get over you. i promised myself no more of those foolish acts. laugh i nthe face of reality and everything will be okay.
but today, today you fulfilled your promise.. you took my breath away. you made me giggle.
but you also made me worry.
don't try to dodge my question.
my statement.
you're acting weird.
you dont know how much our talk pissed me off.
you don't know how close i was to telling you how i feel..
so oconfused. so scared...
im jsut writing this as i go.
i think i love you....
but what excactly is love?
x