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16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

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When did life become so difficult...?
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Hey guys.. i know i havent blogged for afew days; but honestly right now i just find it so hard to communicate my ideas and thoughts.
And most often when i do open my mouth or decide to do something, i regret it.

All these thoughts that run through me.
i want to let it out.. but maybe its just best if i hold it in abit longer..
just a bit longer until everything; or at least most things are okay again..

these days; i should stop isolating myself on msn. Yesterday night i tried to get distracted, return to my old happy self, but it felt like i was just getting really annoying and getting onto everyone's nerves. If i showed how i truly felt, i know everything's going to go wrong .that i'm going to say something stupid to make someone else feel worse, that people will just want to cease talking to me overall.

Seems like everyone is having such a difficult time; i need to talk to someone but who do i go to? i know everyone is constantly saying that they are there for me. But even if it was three in the morning? even when they are in their own despair and have issues of their own to deal with? Sometimes, i just feel so selfish. That i want everyone to listen to me. to know how i feel. but i don't have the heart to..
many things have happened over the last few days, i just need to gather my thoughts.

Learning to let go..
I will eventually let it go..

no matter waht yu said, things HAVE changed for the worse. i want to find a hole to bury my head in, to walk in the other direction when i see yu. to sign of msn if yu come on.
then i realise.. i really can't let go can i? no just yet anyways. imma press delete. sure i may regret it for a while.. but then it'll make things easier right?? Yes easier for the both of us...

BLEH. my overused phrase. but honeslty, no better word describes me atm.

take care all. xx


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