itsHER
the girl next door


nguggy.
16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

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Dear you,

because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
because it was always you. && somehow i hope it always will be.
PPJjunior

sunny days.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
last night, i seriously lost all hope.. i just didnt want to think but the two people who i turned to somehow would not drop the topic.. i asked for distractions yet they made me think deeper into the situation <_< i understand that all they want to do is help, but i really cant tell.. its stupid but if i tell, then i will be judged. noone will be treating me for me but out of pure pity. everyone who reads my memoirs assumes that i am in love and rejected by a guy. i am telling yu now that its nothing like yu think.

back to my point, thanks guys for talking to me though, i understand that yu just want to help and i really appreciate it.

well; today i spent time with the mother. i had a good time i guess (:
the last time i did.. well that day seemed to be the one in which everything changed. im feeling abit reassured cause i requested her to do something.. i just hope she does it. i feel so ashamed.. well thats probably not the right word.. more like disappointed in myself (?) im losing too much weight its not funny ): like yerh losing weight is like awesome but .. idk .. i just dont feel like eating anymore. on the otherhand i have skittles and apple juice ~ !

hrmm. i hope the night stays this way, that i stay content. i hate nights they make me think too much. i really want to go out o.o
but oh wells, i guess to make the mother happy ill just have to bite my tongue a little longer.

cheers guys xx.


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