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16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

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because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
because it was always you. && somehow i hope it always will be.
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1..2..3.. smile !
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
KAPEESH? kapeesh.

"Don't smile if yu don't mean it"
a friend once told me this; and my argument was that the world knew me this way, for the smile on my face, the jokes that i make; im sure yu get my drift.
However last night, after conversation with a friend, whom i can now truly call a dear friend indeed, i understood what my other friend meant when she told me not to smile if i didnt mean it. so to my dear friend, please, don't smile if yu dont mean it. no matter how yu hide it, i can still sense the hurt yu are going through. i dont know what caused that hurt, but to me it doesnt really matter. yu dont have to tell me if yu dont want to, i would just like to offer yu my comfort. i want to tell yu to smile, but how can i do so when im finding it hard to do so myself? remember what i told yu? no matter how similar our circumstances,i would never understand how yu feel. i realy dnt know what to do to make yu feel better... but ill try.
funny, but yesterday night, i had a good cry whilst tlking to yu. yu know thers a bad cry and then a good cry? like the bad cry where it feels like theres just a hole in the middle of your chest which hurts and hurts so much and its getting bigger and biggers while youre gasping and crying for breaths. Well, and then theres the good cryy, where after yu cry theres a deep sense of relief, sure yu may be tired but it was good to finally let it out of yu for it has been in there for just too long. Sure, i didnt reveal my all to yu, but it was the most ive revealed to anyone. So tha one point i didnt say it straight out but i indicated so. did yu get the message of what happened to me? well; idk. kay; after all that rambling, i guess my point is, thankyu for the talk. and if yu ever need. im there for yu. (:

yesterday night was.. busy(?) alot of catchups since ive been isolating myself last weekend. i had some laughs and cries, but overall it was good. had a late night sleep and felt rather tired for work. guess what TOY SALE tomorrow (:
on the flip side, they put me on shift from 5pm till midnight tomorrow...
Anywho, today after work i decided to take some pics of my cake.. ? i guess lamah and some other friends got me into photography kinda. considering one unit for next year? well who knows. its nothing spectacular, but yu know what, ive got a different aspect. i like to cook then take pics of my food xD
likelike. yerh if you saw my last bunch on marshmellows&rocky road? ^____^
anyways; enjoy?





cheers bumchummys. hope yu all had a happy-licious day .
xx.


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