itsHER
the girl next door


nguggy.
16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

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Dear you,

because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
because it was always you. && somehow i hope it always will be.
PPJjunior

0600AM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
mmm. stupid guy txts me at this time.. yerh i know why.. its our morning thing.. buhbuh its holidays and just cause je jas work man.. he didnt even reply me afterwards T.T

so now; im alone thoughts to run free.

jealously. green with envy. me. selfish. self centered.. life. fend. need. live. die. erase. forget. free.

sometimes..two lost causes wont help.. because we cant really give eachother what we need, as we know that nothing could make us forget. the nothing could make us feel better so we sit and listen to eachother our pain mixing and building.

sometimes the only person who can help yu, is the one who does not know at all, does not try to find out when yu dont want to say yet they sense that something is wrong, that yu dont want to say and help yu move through time.

too bad sometimes.. that someone isnt the ideal one for yu.

thankyou; but under our circumstances.. its just different. it hurts yu know.. right now everything in my life at every angle there is a dagger attacking me.. to the point it hurts now.. so as i crumble over itake your offering hand.. but will i have to step back.. i did it once to someone else.. a friend told me i should ve.. so i did.. but did i regret it.. yes.. so what should i do with yu .. even though its all wrong its impossible i swear for things to continue the way they are.. cant yu back away?? get tired of me and leave stop it. its got to the point wheres an hour without tlking to yu is unbearable even when im in a distressed mood and only manage a "mhmm" its to yu.. even though we know nothing much of eachother its the day that i spend with yu. i hate this. but how do i feel abt yuu..

so many "yu"'s now.. im sorry but i dont think i should name them...


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