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nguggy.
16; sydney. a relatively good girl. feeling like she has a lot to say yet doesn't know how. So maybe these stories and scribbles of thoughts might turn out pointless to you. Maybe You'll dig some meaning out of them. Or maybe, you'll maybe one day even think and feel like she does. Maybe one day, you'll finally truly understand. Maybe you could even tell them for her. Just maybe. xx_.

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because sometimes i don't know how to get you anymore;
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you can change your face; but you can't hide your emotions.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Went to Nan Tien Temple at Wollongong today for geo. excursion, it was a good day ? idk; much to reflect about to say anything else i guess. The guide told us this: "You can change your face, but you can't hide it" I've slightly modified it to my understanding. You can change your face, but you can't hide your emotions...

I realised something today; all people are different. Okay; so maybe i knew that already but come on.. cut me some slack. Believe it or not, its the most simplistic things that make me smile. The rainbow, the sun after a cloudy day. But when i look across from me, there is not the smile i expect to see on everyones faces for the prettyful day. I realise, that i, along with other people have been facing some barriers, challenges, or harsh times whatever you choose to call it. But honestly, sometimes shouldnt we at least try to let it go and enjoy what is right there and right then? On the hour or so bus ride from Wollongong, i was able to do so. the sun, the scenery. I would take some photographs but you know.. some people *cough*lamah*cough* would just make me look bad..LOL. Anyways, it upsets me that i can't do anything about their problems and worries. i try to help, but what am i suppose to do when i repeatively get the answer "im okay; im just tired". I've been there done that, so i let them be. I couldnt make elena; melanie or mary smile from deep within. So i tried something else, i tried to seek comfort in someone else. Anthony, you said you'd smile, and ill just take your word for it. did you though? i dont know, but since i made someone smile i tried to be a little more assured. as a friend, i hope of nothing more but for all my friends to always smile...

I learnt a lesson today. Never ending compassion; or in other words- unconditional love. to love everyone and everyhting around you. its a hard concept to grasp, but none the less i will stil try to do so. if i cant strive to do the big things then the little will have to do so.

smile always;
xx_.
nguggy


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