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Saturday, June 20, 2009
its time to put on the mask; that everyone expects of me. the polite child, the helpful girl, the happy friend? who am i truly? everything, or should i rather say everyone molds who we are. i guess ive lived up to others expectations making them my own. i guess right here and right now i have my second goal.
goal #2
in quest for own identity.
it wont be easy, but who said life would be. 8:12am. and thinking too much already. my head feels like its floating but being weighed down at the same time. im sick and tired. but i wont let go, no not just yet.
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i know you're right. you did it for me and i am thankful for it. if you ever read this, i wanna say thankyou a million times. but right now, i think its time for me to stop. to stop placing this burden on you. you were right, i was selfish, and all the things i did were merely an excuse for my behaviour. but i can't help myself sometimes. like you said; you nor anyone else would ever understand. so why should i cause all this trouble. but people are wrong, i can't simple let it go. because the gash has inflicted too much damage. has the gash healed? till today i dont know, but if it has, i am truly scared that the scar its left behind will reopen.
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xx_.goal #2
in quest for own identity.
it wont be easy, but who said life would be. 8:12am. and thinking too much already. my head feels like its floating but being weighed down at the same time. im sick and tired. but i wont let go, no not just yet.
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i know you're right. you did it for me and i am thankful for it. if you ever read this, i wanna say thankyou a million times. but right now, i think its time for me to stop. to stop placing this burden on you. you were right, i was selfish, and all the things i did were merely an excuse for my behaviour. but i can't help myself sometimes. like you said; you nor anyone else would ever understand. so why should i cause all this trouble. but people are wrong, i can't simple let it go. because the gash has inflicted too much damage. has the gash healed? till today i dont know, but if it has, i am truly scared that the scar its left behind will reopen.
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i wanted to start the day with a smile today, but its so hard when the first thing you feed me is sour lemons...
nguggy